Obviously, its November, and in a month plus from now, it would be new year… and 2009 would be the new digits we have to get use to when filling in dates. At these few weeks left of 2008, I just can’t help but ponder over these batch of students which are would be leaving school life, and moving into the ‘cruel’ world.
Maybe you’d wonder why I tend to use the word ‘cruel’ to refer to the world outside school? Ehmmm.. I guess its because the world is a place where so many things will not happen if you do not have that thing we call ‘survival’, and looking at those teenagers in school… I do wonder whether they are actually ready to face all this shit waiting for them. I know by fact that I have left school 8 years ago, and still… I do still find difficulty handling all those crap and shit thrown at me *sigh*
Anyway, this post is about this batch of students leaving my work place by the end of November 2008. They are about 150 of them, and frankly, I’ve only taught about 50 of them, while the others were acquainted to me some how along my journey as an educator.
Last year, I did teach one form 5 class, and yet… the feeling was not the same. Didn’t really feel that attached despite being with them till their last day in school. This year, I’m teaching none of the Form 5 classes, and yet… I have this ‘hole’ in my heart which says “I’m gonna miss these guys“.
Ya..ya.. call me sentimental. If I were to cry even, what’s it to you?? Hurgghhhh!!!
Errr… I honestly don’t know what to say. This batch has been more than students to me, they are friends. I know, there is an age gap, and there is the invincible student-teacher line.
But I guess, the best heart felt moment for me was when some of them actually took the trouble to came up to me and say; “Cikgu, thanks for everything, and sorry for any wrong-doings… and wish us luck for our exams“. I know it may be a small deal for some (or them), but for me, its something huge because, I do not feel I have done much for them… and I don’t teach any of them formally this year. I mean, these kind of things are normally meant for the teachers currently teaching them in Form 5, and well… if you’ve never taught them, it’s near to zero to get such words out from them, especially with students these days.
Kind of feel sad writing this post, and I am now really out of words. I guess, what I’m trying to say is “I wish you guys luck in your SPM, and all your future undertakings“… and I really hope you guys can achieve the best in what you do…
c-ya guys around!!!!
p/s: The pics are mostly of those in Form 5 this year… and I apologize I can’t upload all of you guys faces here. 😛 Anyway, here’s a song which would bring back memories for us.
kisah mula dulu kala
bila hati jatuh cinta
ku terkenang raut wajah
bila pejam mata
tawa jiwa ubat duka
tringat dikau yg disana
lagu ini khas ku gubah
utk mu oo syg
hatiku mulai bosan (bosan)
rinduku pada mu bulan (bulan)
kemudiannya ku datang…
ku sangka dikau riang (riang)
rupanya harapku pulang (pulang)
bulan lapan di sandakan..
bulan lapan di sandakan x3
wha!!!! so sad….!!! missed my time at the santubong which i together with all the form five…. will gonna miss all of SMK MJ’s crew,and especially you!!!!!!:P
emy’s last blog post..Day before SPM
Hehehhe… you sure your gonna miss me??
I’m an evil student! I don’t care enough or am too afraid to go back to school.. especially to meet teachers. Can’t stand their teacher-ness and the way they’d question you. Must be because i have nothing to show for it. Not that i was a horrible student then or anything. 😛
Ugh, school life is as cruel as the outside world. In a different way at least. Never liked it, never will. I think i’ll be hating everything for the rest of my life. X(
usws’s last blog post..Congratulations! I think!!
Well, everyone has their very own experience. I can say that all of us enjoyed our school life, but I did 😛
Remember how we used to feel when we leave school to face the world on our own? Leaving the teachers we had a crush on, leaving classmates we might never see again, leaving the schoolroom for reality, and finally leaving adolescent to be a responsible adult. Sad but at least we move on, but not for the teachers who are left behind. Students change every year yet they r still there. Now u have 1st hand experience on how a teacher feels when you leave.
Good luck for making the best of it. 🙂
One other’s last blog post..Apple cider …
Yea.. I am getting 1st hand experience, and it sucks!! No wonder some teachers tend to be less bothered about their students
.. bukan less bothered. I think it’s more like pretending not to bother too much or trying not to get too attached because the relationship will end when they leave.
One other’s last blog post..Same same… but different…
Yeah.. trying to do just that also 😀
wow.. touching! hahah..
hahaha… yaka?? well, I guess I should be glad you think so 😀
‘Jangan salahkan perpisahan.Salahkan pertemuan.’ said 1 of my friends when we were all teary-eyed when we separated aft our diploma..And I have x seen hm since..Although logically,he has a point but i x agree cos i x mind d pertemuan part but x 1 likes perpisahan..So i can udstnd why some teachers try to invest less emotionally but its x like we can switch off our emotions rite?Hmm..Somehow related to my nxt post.Hehe.
heheh.. its related… but I’ve got no comment 😛