This would be a rather personal post, so if you are not into these sort of things, then do not read further.
Well, so where do I start? Em, let’s just say… I am human, and I make mistakes in life. I do not want to dwell over the past, because it is useless, and pathetic. Nonetheless, I remain hopeful, that what went wrong in the past, will not occur anywhere in the future. That is my hope.
I am not trying to hide behind the statement “I am human, and human’s make mistakes, so forgive me” either. Nope, that would not be right. A mistake is a mistake. It can’t be correctable, nor can it be reversed. It can only be forgiven. That is the cruel fact.
In my life, I have made mistakes, and in the process, broken hearts, moved to the lowest point in my life, lied, hurt myself,… and so many other negative things you could personally mention without me saying. Yup, I can say I’ve been there, done that.
People tend to ask, do I fear death… and I’d say “NO!”. Life begins to end, and when you are not really enjoying life, you don’t mind it to end. For me, I am currently enjoying my life, but I do not fear death due to my personal belief that I am not significant in anyone’s life.
Anyway, I’d like to point this out to someone out there whom is continuing to harass my present life. You see, whatever happened in the past, has happened. I have no intend to correct it. I am to blame for all that has happened, and I do not hide from this fact. The only mystical problem I have is that I don’t know why you keep on harassing the wrong person, namely my current girlfriend?? She is innocent on the matter, or whatever has happened in the past, or more specifically, my past. If you want to continue to find blame in someone, blame it on me, not her.
These harassment’s you are doing, Will that remove the hatred and pain I have caused you? Seriously, I doubt it… but if you must, why not just harass me instead of an innocent person?
I don’t know what you think of those harassing innocent people, but my humble opinion is that it’s a pure act of coward-ness.
I find it weird that some people are bothered about the ‘status’ of my girlfriend. Uhh.. It’s my life. Can I decide on it at the very least? If you are so pains stricken by my happiness or my life… don’t bother about it. Just don’t care lah… Easy. It’s not like everywhere you turn, you will see my face.
Uh… and if we were to talk about cursing.. Yup. I know a little about curses. Some people curse other’s on a daily basis, but I frankly don’t like cursing others. Nevertheless, if you shall find the need to curse me, leave out other’s associated with me. They have done nothing to deserve the curse…
Finally, I pity on those whom continue to dwell over the past which can’t be changed, and can’t be corrected… but yah…
I’d just like to say God bless you and your partner (which I assume is still with you, unless that someone has left you due to you always dwelling over the past)… even though I know, when I say “God bless”, you say you wanna puke, despite me, really meaning it…
Ahh.. never mind, it’s the thought that counts. Lets move on and frankly speaking, I have never regreted on anything that I have decided after long considerations. The same goes for this thing/issue.
some ppl just can’t accept that life has to move on.
[Cyril Dason]
Yah.. true!! I wonder why they just can’t move on?? Too much time on their hands??
sabar jak lah … a trial maybe. u buat donno jakla ngan orang kedak ya .sakit jiwa maybe.:D
[Cyril Dason]
Funny thing is, they are so bothered about me and whom I date, or what I do.. but they don’t bother me.. Cowards maybe?
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Does that person reads your blog? Will that person come across this entry? Does that person knows to target an easy target in hope that it will break your relationship is a lowly and potentially backfiring move?
Cos if anyone do that, you are sure of their character and after doing that there is no way anyone would return to her (that troublemaker) again. You’d be crazy to, wouldn’t you!
All the best in overcoming it though. Hope you can just ignore it.
[Cyril Dason]
I have a good feeling they do. Some how, I do notice that some of my so called ‘enemies’ or rather, those whom disapprove of me do attend to my blog and bother about my life.
I take it in a positive light.. more readers.. more income 😀 hahaha.. . Maybe I should thank them. Anyway, I agree with you. It’s just making tings worst, and putting themselves in the worst ever position. I find myself now saying things I didn’t want to reveal before, but their lies have prompted me to protect myself by telling it out. Anyway, I am ignoring it all…
live life cool bro..
cheer up!
[Cyril Dason]
Yup. Will do!
move on? yeah move on… don’t look back.
Genesis 19: 17 “…Flee for your lives! don’t LOOK BACK, and don’t stop anywhere in the plain!…”
Genesis 19: 26 “But Lot’s wife LOOKED BACK, and she became a pillar of salt”.
God Bless!
[Cyril Dason]
I don’t get it willie.. care to explain?? Never a fan of parables.. that’s why I have to attend mass.
Like Gloria asked, Does that person reads ur blog? and will that person come across this entry? drop that person a link, maybe that person will get the whole obvious hint.
Whatever it is, siboh layan jak Cyril. ignorance is the best treatment.
[Cyril Dason]
Malas la wanna make things bigger. The person has a blog, but yeah.. no point la. If she is reading this, she knows its for her.
Which is why in the normal curve of a population distribution, there will some alpha value of a certain degree that value exist (or people exist)….talking in maths term, so the solution will also have to be something that is out of the normal curve sometimes.
[Cyril Dason]
I don’t get what you’re trying to say Desmond 🙁
I also don’t get what bro DJ is tryin to say hehe. Anyway Cyril, there are some ppl who don’t let go of their past easily. But kesian ur current gf.
To that person, please go get a life.
[Cyril Dason]
I do hope the person gets your message, and yeah.. I pity my current gf. Really pity her.
very much like your post. =)
very true…. but i guess the person has not had the closure the person wants? maybe to say the least, talk to the person one last time and clear everything out? maybe the person just needs the closure..
[Cyril]
Thanks Yomi for the compliment. Closure isn’t something the person is looking for. I know. Well, its the past.. I’m letting it be.